Story: Chimera: Class of 666
Part: One "Waking Up"
Chapter: Three "The Iron Gauntlet"
Authored by:
Hannah Nyland (The Irreverent Revenant)
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Chimera:
Class of 666
Class of 666
By Hannah Nyland and Jerad Sayler
I
glance around to make sure no one had been paying
attention to us. The other cousins are chatting to each other
on the opposite side of the basement.
They aren’t of course, Jack seems pretty thorough, maybe there was magic
he was working here as well. I resist
the urge to scan the room for spells and notice Jack has not stopped in his
tale. I mentally rush to catch up.
“Once
I entered the greatest most horrible rubix cube in creation the fun really
began. The labyrinth of iron and brimstone was a maze in at least three
dimensions,” he says before his face grows solemn.
“…This
part gets very private. Actually, I may literally have PTSD from my trip there.
This is the first time I have ever gone into this much detail about it. All the
other times I was asked I always say ‘I went to hell, it was horrible, I don't
want to talk about it.’”
Jack
breaks off and looks down into the heart of his half empty cup. He stares into
it, brows furrowed and knitting. Then he snaps out of it and keep going. As he
continues his tone goes from matter-of-fact to tired and resigned. Acceptance
and self-realization perhaps? I wonder
how much I have really changed from my ordeal.
“…And… I guess I still don't really want to
talk about it... I faced my inner demons, my literal inner demons given form in the Supernal. I relived every
horrible thing I did, every selfish thing I have ever said. Anytime I was weak
or hurt the people around me. Anytime I hurt another through action or
inaction. There was a lot of material
to cover. I played all the parts in these revelation sessions. By the time I
was in the middle of it I knew I deserved this pain. They tortured me. I
tortured myself. Physical pain and emotional pain are the same thing there, no
body, just the mind and the nightmares. I created this place, or maybe I was
perceiving Pandemonium through the filter of my life experience. I really
thought I was in the Christian Hell, and that I was never going to
leave.”
“In
fact, at one point they did trick me. I thought I was out. I continued life as
soul liberated from hell. Life went on
for a subjective year. Then that
angler-demon showed up and said it was all a lie and that I never really left. Then Bam! I was back in it, the lights came
up. I think that is part of what finally broke me Hell. And then I truly
believed that the damned never escaped this place, in some ways I never
survived, never left, or part of me died there.”
I
was very, very wrong about Jack being casual about telling this. No one could
be. I don’t say anything, just listen, completely unsettled. My drink is still
mostly untouched.
“Then
through the new round or torment I started fighting back. I had nowhere else to
go but up. The only weapon you have
against a Pandemonian demon of this kind is your willpower alone. And when you have nothing else to lose… well
you have nothing else to lose.”
He
pulls out a deck of cards and pulls XI (the Hanged Man) from the deck. On the
card a man hangs upside down in a vaguely angular way that perhaps invokes an
inverted crucifixion.
“The
Hanged Man… to bear pain stoically and never again cry uncle. It took forever
to insensate myself to the point I could actually resist. Pain started to
become my power, it fueled my will. I waded through thorns of psychic
torment... faced all my sins... my weakness scourged from my body. Not
purified… but melted down and forged into iron.”
Concern
flashes across my face, and then I go still. Waiting, almost with dread. He sips and starts again.
“Then
I reached it… At the center of the endless labyrinth… a maze that defied all
reason and concept of distance or direction… I got to the center. All my agony
and willpower formed a singularity.”
“I
saw the Iron Tower. The tower is a clenched fist, a phallic gauntlet. The
prison inside the prison. But I was about to become a jailor. That is what I
thought was going to happen. I would be destroyed or I would become a Demon. I
was ready. Inside was an Iron maiden of jagged Iron rusty spikes. The tower
burned like a forge. Through the guardian Manticores I formed my will into a
psychic blade that pieced the pain and carved my name into the walls of the
brimstone crucible forever. I wrote my
name … my one True name, the center of my identify. I forged a link to this
Truth and was awakened!”
Jack
smiles this last, it doesn’t touch my eyes. His voice seems dead now, grim
determination.
“So
that was it. My psychological being was torn limb from limb by demons of my own
making, every pain was a judgment, a consequence and a lesson. Until I finally
let go of all my hang-ups, my baggage, my damage, my unclean soul was rarefied as
if sandblasted away. Gleeful surgery without painkillers, the act of healing a
tumor and cutting it away has to be felt
to actually work. I suffered the eversion (turning inside out) of my soul many
times. And you experienced this same vertigo and loss of reason.”
“When I woke from the longest most horrible
dream I knew I was really back. Pandemonium was more real than my entire life,
the lessons forged from ever act, sin, fear, weakness were instilled into
me. It was so vivid… by contrast, this
reality seems so… cloudy.”
I
understood. “I remember.” I meet that
cold gaze with my own. He nods in
acknowledgement.
“And
you know the rest. I still felt it when I woke up, the channel back to that
place. My soul was changed, my will was refined. I had a body, an actual body.
And it hurt to be alive. It was a joy. Then I, like the rest of us, quickly
found and called upon the Sights for the first time. Which you have already
found.” Jack downs the rest of his cup of coffee. “Are you okay? I didn’t scare
you too bad did I?”
“Fine. I’m fine,” I lie. There is nothing I
could possibly say that would be an adequate response to the story I have just
heard. Hesitantly, I reach out and pat him on the back before letting my hand
drop. It was just as awkward as when he tried to comfort me. I think about my test and my face hardens.
“We won. So I guess that’s what matters.”
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